Well, there have been things I've though of here and there that I've wanted to write about. Unfortunately at this moment I can't think of one of them!
Guess I'll write about my current situation...I had eye muscle surgery on Thursday. I remember about 2 1/2 years ago when Grant and I moved into our house...I experienced my first moment of double vision. I'd have to say it was the most severe of them all. I remember laying on the floor - since our furniture hadn't come yet, watching TV...I clearly was seeing two TV's. I went to the eye doctor about the problem and I was told it was my eye muscle, and that he could try prism glasses, and that eventually I could have to get surgery if it kept up. Well, the problem subsided and I didn't noticed major double vision. Later, I started having these happenings where if I turned my head from side to side quickly, I'd get this weird feeling where I couldn't focus on what I was trying to look at! The best example to give, is when I'd be driving and I'd quickly look over my left shoulder to make sure a car wasn't there to get over...when I'd turn my head quick to look straight on things would be unclear, I wouldn't say it was double vision, maybe because it wasn't like I was clearly seeing two roads, but yet I felt that I couldn't focus my eyes together to see right. It was so frusterating, I'd have to cover one eye to see right for a minute until it'd go away. So at one point I found an eye specialist that was local. I really thought it was my eyes....well the specialist I went to, said my eyes were fine! Silly me...trusting them right away, moved on to go to my general doc. I couldn't find the right word to describe the sensation I'd get, so I said that I couldn't focus, and it would make me feel a little dizzy. Well, it wasn't like I was going to collapse I was so dizzy. But my doctor then had me get an EKG, which lead to going for a cardiogram...I might be saying that wrong. But I guess she thought something was wrong with my heart, which made me a little more scared then I was. Well, those tests turned out OK...so I was referred to an ENT. I went though hearing tests, and then balance tests...and the best they could say was that it might be positional vertigo. Which could be treated with meds. For anyone who knows me, I am the absolute worst at taking daily meds. I forget all the time. For a few months I left it at that....wasn't sure what else I could do!
It wasn't till this past March when I once again visited my eye doctor to get a refill on my contacts. Well, I shared with him what was going on when I'd turn my head! It was the eye muscle!!! I had practically forgotten about when I saw him for that so long ago...but it all the made sense. My right eye muscle wasn't working properly...when I'd turn my head quickly, or when it wasn't in use, my eye would shut off, just roll up in my head...then would have a delay on when it needed to line up with my left eye. It's really weird, and freaked me out when I did it in the mirror to see what was really happening. He referred me to an eye specialist, and they found what was going on and recommended surgery. Of course it wasn't pushed...hey I could live with it forever....I could wear an eye patch! haha right....or just cover my eye when it'd happen. Apparently I had a head tilt, I'd just automatically tilt my head to the right a little so that I could see better. This I learned is a common sign of double vision....eye muscle issues. The tilt could get worse over time too if I didn't get it fixded. So I decided to go through with the surgery...even though the thought of someone operating down in my eye freaked the heck out of me!!!
On April 23rd, I went in for the surgery. I was a lot more awake and alert through it then I had hoped I'd be. I could hear everything the surgeon said, and see a shadow of his movements. I could see him stitching up my muscle in my eye! Ewww....anyways the surgery lasted no more then 30 minutes....not that I was watching the clock but it didn't feel long.
It hasn't been a very painful experience. I guess my best way of describing it would be that it's an experience that requires patience. It's been three days since my surgery and I still can't open my right eye all the way. I have to use this ointment, that is very gel like in my eye four times a day...which blurrs my vision some. My eye is blood red down under the eye lid which grosses me out. It hurts a little to move my eye....duh the mucles was operated on. It's not excruciating pain though...no pain meds were perscribed....just tylenol as needed.
I go back tomorrow for a check up, I hope this time next week....I am feeling much better about it. I can't wait till I can not be paranoid about anything getting in my eye or touching it. I can't wait to wear eye make up again! To put my contacts in again! haha. To not have to put this stuff in my eye that looks like vasaline! My eye gets so goopy!

things are so not the same...i hate it.

"Maybe sometimes, we feel afraid, but it's alright The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change. Don't you think it's strange? "


So Grant and I have been completely obsessed...maybe me more so then G, with The Office.
I love it! All I want to do is sit around and watch it repeatedly. I got Grant seasons 1 and 2 for his Birthday then I got season 3 last Friday. I'll probably have to look on ebay for seasons 4 and 5 when it comes out...I can't afford this buying them at Target price. yuck!

I had this awesome topic I wanted to write about the other day....now I can't think of it =( blah...maybe later!

Life

****--- There comes a point in your life when you realize who matters, and who never did, who wont any more, and those who will. I am not worrying about the people from my past, there is a reason they arnt in my future.---****


Ain't that the truth!

So I'm trying this new fad they call "packing your lunch" haha...

It's my lunch hour and I just ate the salad I packed...it was really good but I just know I'll be hungry again in an hour or two...so I also packed the 100 calorie snacks...I hope they hold me over =)

Monday's Mondays...well I guess I am kinda looking forward to kickboxing class tonight...somehow I've mangaed to get Grant to come on the nights he doesn't have basketball. My mom and brother have started going too and I can only hope my uncoordinated boy Steven goes!! I love him. I pray the instructor takes it a lil easy on us...Wednesday's class was absolute hell!

Gossip Girl ~ One Treehill ~ and True Beauty ~ are all on tonight....and should be new! Yessss! I'm way too obsessed with TV shows!

There's been a bit of a dark cloud hoovering over me since Friday. I haven't been able to sleep right and when I'm not busy doing something...I'm thinking about how much it bothers me! I don't even know what to do to make it go away...or how to explain without actually spilling the whole situation. I'm just hoping I can move past it....although it really hurt.

Okay...guess I have 30 more minutes to fill of lunch hour...now that I'm trying to eat in more =/

xoxo

TM

Superbowl is on....I'm so tired! I guess I'll cheer for the Steelers since I'm from PA...


This weekend has been so boring...it was a three day weekend too! Thanks to my work for having us take every other Friday off unpaid. :/

I'm not really looking forward to getting up for work tomorrow...I'd just like to sleep in and l0unge around all day. I hate this cold weather!

Funny Fact about T-bear.... every night...we'll let's say in the middle of the night he comes to my side of the bed and sits there staring at me grunting...(he is telling me to pick him up and put him on the bed) they have doggie stairs...which he uses in the day and every other time....but for some unknown reason at night he has to wake me up to pick him up....and if I don't get up...he gets louder and louder and the grunts turn to lil barks. What a brat!

Hello...Hello

So let's see...this is a fresh start to a new blog...I've been on LiveJournal and AOL blogs...but most of those go back so far in my life that I'd like to just start fresh.

So, my name is Tara and I live in Groveland with my husband Grant and our two pomeranians, Teddy & Rusty.

Grant and I got married recently on November 15, 2008...wow that the most beautiful day of my life! We got married at the Mission Inn Resort in Howey-in-the-Hills. It was goregous...and so much fun. We honey mooned to Play del Carmen in Mexico (first time for both of us to leave the country). It was awesome! I could probably go on and on about this experience but I'll save that for another blog.

Our two doggies, Teddy is 2 (11.17.06) and Rusty is 1 (10.15.07) they are both incredibly spoiled and well loved. I wish I could take them everywhere...or atleast that they could be so well behaved to do such a thing....

Grant and I moved in to our house in December of 2006...I think it was just two weeks later and there we were bringing 8 week old lil Teddy Bear home! I don't think a house can be a home without a doggie =). About a year later then we decided Teddy could use a good brother...and there came Rusty right before Christmas of 2007.

Grant and I both work the normal full time jobs and pretty much live pay check to pay check. Some people might feel pretty judgemental about that, but in this day and age...I don't even know how to get a head. It's not easy to get financially ahead...maybe one day we'll figure it out. Until then we are content....working our 40 hours a week, coming home cooking dinner together...watching american idol...and then spending Saturday night out with some friends.

Well...I think I'm going to stop for now...it's Sunday and Sunday's = grocery shopping & laziness.

xoxo
TM